why do i make irresponsible choices?

I am so bad with money. I'm so annoyed with myself for spending carelessly and not keeping track of how much money is being wasted on ridiculous and unnecessary things. I suppose I'm spending more now because I have a somewhat steady income, but a lot of times I just use my card, which means I'm never actually seeing numbers. Which THEN means that I'm over-spending! When I see the amount of money that I spend buying food, I am shocked. Why am I spending so much on food when I am provided with a lot of free food here??

I am putting myself on a budget - something I should have done a long time ago. I think a good method will be to take out a certain amount of cash for a specified time period and use only that. Otherwise, the rest of the money needs to stay in the bank. It is so important that I save, especially since I'm hoping to move somewhat soon! And moving is expensive. Blaaaah.

Money is such a blessing and a curse.

meaningful

Today I was invited in.

And though I move forward with caution, I'm happy to be moving forward :)

haha

I got into the van with one of my girls yesterday to grab some food. I turned the car on and she asked, "Kara, what is that red picture of a dog with a ball on its back?" She had to ask again before I understood what picture she was talking about. Haha, I explained to her that it is a picture of a person with an deployed airbag. Cuteness.

updates

1.
Often, I'd rather choose to be alone, but I always walk away feeling so blessed and encouraged after spending time with friends.

2.
The movie Inception was FANTASTIC. Go see it.

3.
My best friend from Hillview is leaving...I hope to be joining her soon in WA, but I know it will be very hard being here without her.

4.
I would stay in CA a little longer than necessary to watch the Chargers play another (at least the first part of the) seaon. Ridiculous? I say not.

5.
I am addicted to a word game on my phone, giving up sleep to play "just one more time!"

6.
I freaking haaaaaaaaaaaaate the heat.

7.
I leave for the Bahamas in one week. I am excited, but anxious to fly across the country and stay for two weeks in a place I've never visited before. Eeek.

8.
I've been watching way too many creepy shows on television...Fatal Attraction, True Crime, I Almost Got Away with It, Deadly Women. The stories are SO intriguing, but definitely don't help my paranoia.

9.
Looking for jobs is annoying and discouraging.

10.
How can someone be so discontent, yet so unmotivated to do anything about it?

11.
Shutter Island - also a good movie that I highly recommend.


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Aaaaaaaaah I'm so sick. I freaking hate being sick. It makes me grouchy and tired and achy...not a good combination when you're taking care of six kids.

I had a sweeeeeeeeet day off yesterday and spent it all with good friends. I slept in (always a good start to the day) and took my sweet time getting ready. Steph and I and another co-worker are house-sitting for some friends, so we hung out there in the afternoon. It was relaxing to hang out in a nice air-conditioned house with good people and good food.



Steph looks so cute in this picture




A group of nine of us went to Rock Harbor in Fullerton in the evening. It was SO good and SO refreshing. The pastor talked about going to God with our problems instead of consulting everyone else first and then asking the Lord for his blessing. The pastor asked us what we needed deliverance from and encouraged us to seek God. It was very revealing of my self-reliant attitude.

Afterwards, we went to a coffee shop and sat at a table, talking for a couple hours. I loved it.